Tell Me Why

Why am I still here? When the doctors have said so many times that I am supposed to be dead? Why does this keep happening to me? Can someone, anyone please tell me why? Why my brain keeps messing up time after time? Is it a brain tumor? Is it brain cancer? Is it a seizure disorder? How is a woman supposed to call herself a mother when she is not there for her own daughter? Does not even come to the hospital after being diagnosed with a deadly disorder. Can someone, anyone please tell me why? Why the pain and agony keeps coming time after time? Why am I still here? Can someone, anyone please tell me why?