To Tell You Everything

Would it be weird to tell you everything now?

Everything that I've felt so strong, yet felt so scared to admit?

Would it be weird for me to say that yes, not only have you stolen my heart, but you stole it quickly, and you stole it when I began to believe that maybe no one would bother, and you stole it when I wasn't quite ready to hand it over because I've always been too scared and too cautious, but when you had it, it was okay, because I trust you with my heart, and I don't think I'll find anyone else who would handle it better.

And now I feel like maybe I've lost you, and all I seem to be able to do everyday is wish for you back, wish that things would go back to smiles, and goodnights, and hearts, I just want to send you heart after heart and tell you how much I care so you know, and I'm sorry that it took feeling like I'm losing you to realize how much I want to fight for you. For me to realize that you've made me probably the happiest I've ever been, and I was really looking forward to being with you, and just facing life with you.

I'm sorry that I waited until you probably don't care about me until I'm now ready to admit that yes, you are attractive, and you make me happy, and you are the sweetest guy I've ever met in my life, and I've fell in love with the songs you've sent me, and no matter what I do I can't keep you off my mind, and everything about you makes me smile, and I really like your smile, and your eyes are absolutely beautiful, and I want to be the one to make you smile, and to make you laugh, and to make you happy, and to make you blush, and I'm ready to be yours, and I really really want to date you. But I think I've already blown my chance.

I'm not sure why I didn't take the chance when I had it, but now all I want is that chance back. But I know if I ever told you this I'd probably scare you, because really, it scares me. And you're either going to be really over me and not interested, or you're going to think I'm weird and desperate, or maybe I'm thinking things are way worse than they are and it would just destroy whatever I didn't see was left.

I just...I want to tell you, I want to tell you how special you are, and that I want to be able to always tell you how special you are, and I want to tell you how much I like you, and how much I think of you, and how much I miss you, and how much I will always care about you. I'm sorry, but I'm scared that it would only scare you. Although if we don't work out, you'll never get to know, you'll never get to know how much of my stolen heart you've filled, and that might scare me even more. But after all, how much could these words really "fix"?