Ten Months

Ten months we spent together You and I sharing a hopeless love It was doomed before it ever started I knew this, how could I keep such a thing from my beloved? Ten months you lived in an ignorant bliss And all I could do was stare in envy How could you have known what plagued my mind Of all the doubts that burdened me? Ten months I smiled, laughed, and pretended Of course I loved you, I always will But the love I feel can never emerge From a heart, like mine, so damaged, so ill. Ten months, doesn’t seem long I know But to wear a façade for so long This is what made it so unbearable Living life like an unending torturous song. Ten months is how long we were together But I think all along you felt it As friends we were untamed, so beautiful But with a relationship we couldn’t help it. Ten months you tried as hard as you could And I fought with every breath to trust you But we both needed a love we couldn’t produce We were both damaged, and in that damage our love brew. Ten months before it blew up in my face But you had to know that was going to happen It was good for a while until you found her arms And with that my heart began to blacken. Ten months you were with me but enjoyed her laugh You loved me I knew this, but how could you trust me? For I came to you, not over another, and you knew So to come to you damaged had a certain fee. Ten months we were both culprits – liars and thieves We lied by saying we were ready for each other Then accidently stole each other’s hearts Who knew I’d fall so hard, I’ll never feel this for another. Ten months our love was forsaken But I neither could nor would ever want to take it back For now that the ten months is over, you’ve left Lord knows I need another ten months, I long to be taken aback.