thank you

Step one- Sit up: done

Step two- Get out of bed: incomplete

Step two?

I feel a heavy weight push me back into the covers

I want to fight back

But I can’t

I put everything in steps to make things

Easy, its so easy to give up but never forget

I want to get better, or do I?

I don’t know what I want anymore

I feel myself slowly giving up

I feel myself going deeper into the abyss

I feel like every battle lost is more of a reason to

Stop

Stop feeling sorry

Stop going back to

It is killing me and I don’t

Know, I know its hard

But I feel like I am losing my battle with my

Demons

They are everywhere

They are drowning and I can’t

Breathe, Just breathe

You cant just

Give up, I just want to give up

And if I do

I want you to know

Its not your fault.

This battle, this fighting,

It would’ve ended sooner

If it wasn’t for you

So thank you and I’m sorry