The weight of your shadow

Have you ever noticed I get sad when you touch me That I hate calling you mom because your not That I wish I was never born to this world of pain That I have been suffering for years while you sat in vain That I try to put on a smile for the sake of your mood That I hate the taste of this forced solitude That I beg for a way to break free from this lie That i'm slowly decaying beneath a silent sky Have you ever even noticed that im not myself around you That I only smile when told and you never hear my laugh i avoid you like the plague or a patient on hospice i don’t love you and that’s me being honest Do you not understand your mere existence makes me want to scream That I feel trapped inside this terrible dream That I count the minutes until you leave the room That I pray for escape from this impending doom