Then What?

Hungry 
Desperate
Ravenous
for a meaning
a purpose
a way out 
of 
this damn labyrinth
what am I doing?
where am I going?
school
friends
cheer
then what?
when this is all over
what will I have gained?
A nice transcript
good recommendations
college?
So this is all just to go to school again. 
great.
My brain is buzzing
a jar of angry hornets 
crashing into eachother
Stinging
dying for rest
and the solace of understanding
that never comes