therapy

there is a violence in my writing
maybe the anger from all this
hip hop i have been listening to
is seeping into me

or maybe i am only now
realizing how emotionally stunted
i have been
and i am angry
i don’t know what i am angry at
or who i am angry with
but i am angry
it does not enrage me
i feel calm

i can’t stop writing poems
this is my sixth in as many hours
it is not egoism
it is therapy
but i should probably put this pen down
and pick up a poem other than my own