Up There

No matter how hard I try

No matter what I do

I am always thinking of you.

No matter where I am

No matter what day it is

I will always miss you.

When I woke up that day

I knew something was different

But I never thought it’d be you.

I know you’re up there watching over me

I’m hoping you’re proud of what you see.

I realize I’ve changed sense you left

I’m just letting you know I still love you.

I look back on all the times I ignored your calls

And all the times I didn’t come to visit.

There was so much I wanted to know

Now when I ask, there’s no answer.

I’m sorry I never saw how hard you were trying.

I was upset about so many things,

I didn’t mean to take it out on you.

I’m sorry for so many things,

But I can never take them back.

They say maybe it was for the best.

But I can’t go on knowing the facts.

She took something so simple and precious.

I hope the guilt eats her up inside

I waited for years to hear guilty

But she stepped free as your ashes rest below her feet

With the memory that she took you from me.

Either way you’re still gone,

Up there in heaven somewhere.