There is no light in my window

There is no light in my window version 4 So much to say in a little of time how can I refresh intriguing minds what has happen to me i went in so many changes of challenges of writing poetry some themes were based on lust some love some creative stuff seem weird to my fellow audience of peers I had to take a chance switch up my patterns of writing as a man can't be boring in deed must do what it takes to put out my best some nights at the table getting no rest when I get writers block I'm hopeless feel stress gave 1-6 on mommy the relationship we had some parts of it was good most was bad I wish she was here and could of survived writing is releasing my pain that won't come out from my eyes when I don't right I feel my life dull and dry I have to stay motivated in my life only way I keep focus with personal professional type of drive I hope with my work other writers we click in a world fixed on what should make sense in so many unpleasant events I'm still from my last relationship heart broken never will that happen again I made wiser decisions since that ordeal won't be repeated my heart has prevent from being weak I'm just focus on putting out my dream maybe make headlines in make history Their is no light in my window