There's a Broken God in My Head

the house was painted
a soft hue. an old tobacco trap;
discolored white where
pictures once hung.

in the kitchen, grease stains,
faded bluebird wallpaper —
long since ceased it's song,
and one cast-iron skillet off to the side.

pale and forgotten,
the fine china shrieks!
my barefoot innocence
is lost as the cold-colored

porcelain eats at the floor.
sometimes when I lay there covered in
turpentine, stars usually topple
out of the cabinet,

and my gas stove aspirations are botched.
the sink drain moans with the silent
invectives of an impure saint…
her rosary still atop the mantle.

just outside, a stone angel
that smells of lilies, —
savagely eats rosebuds over
an autumn bonfire.

from time to time
her face is one of lament…
it follows me from room to room,
and my hands shake for hours

while holding little antique figurines
in a basket full of milkweed…
they’d tug at the curtain,
a chorus of little music box voices

complaining about her eyes...
they'd scurry up the ivy on the side of
the house to avoid her
disappointed glance…
 

there was a sad wingbeat as
I stepped out on the balcony to collect
them one last time.