They didn’t know

20

He was 20 when I first fell in love with him. Just a gullible 16 year old.

19

He had threaten he was going to kill his self 19 times. I begged him not to.

18

He made me believe I wasn't worth the air I was breathing 18 times.

17

He convinced me I was better off dead. I wasn't sure if I'll make it to my 17th birthday.

16

At 16 you made believe every I love you. Sometimes those I love you's lead you to the edge. But what makes you jump is much more

15

The whole time we was together he said I love you 15 times. Each one was a bullet flying at me pushing me over the edge.

14

At age 14 I couldn't stop staring, he was all I wanted.

13

I learn that love is something that is never gone but never lasting.

12

At 12 I got a taste of what love was.

11

I thought I was ready to be hurt.

10

I was just learning to protect myself

You broke me until I was fine dust. You knew you had control but that still wasn't enough. You wanted to control the way everyone view me. 
I was vulnerable and gullible. I was a child and you knew I would follow you.