They tell me not to give up.

But I didnt understand what they meant.

Not to give up on life? Not to give up on myself?

Ah!

Wait.

But I had already done that.

So I didnt know what to do. I didnt understand what they were telling me.

I wanted to do the right thing and turn everything around.

I wanted to be the person I knew I could be. I wanted to live up to the potential I knew I had and do all the things I knew I could do....because that was who I was.

Thats who I am. Im someone that could do great things....

right.....?

But they tell me Im wrong. They tell me Im nothing. 

And so I believed them....and I didnt understand when I was told otherwise.

I didnt get it.

And guess what?

You dont get it either.