This thing called love

Love cuts deeper then anything it's all about love so deep I love so deep my love makes me weak so much on my mind so much I gotta try to hold it together I gotta stay strong for you bro but my heart is hurting because You was really my best friend my ride to die an I miss you an it's so hard not to be with you cause I feel you slipping away an it hurts me so because you were my protector my big brother and when we talk it's like all the thing you say I know you mean and I wish we could go back to the day you were of one mind it's crazy how time change an I had to grow up an fend for myself because you lost your mind an you still think of me as that little girl you was scared to leave my side and thought ever thing our bond has never die but I just wish you get better you said hope and dreams that's all we have I damn near cry an no one knows this kind of pain when you hope it ain't the last time you here him say I love you too this shit really fuck with my mind cause if I had it my way I make sure we was straight but it seem I'm walking a crooked line and you tell me the move an I tell you okay it's cool and you just want to leave an come home to me cause your worry I won't have a place to lay my head and that's ture words because I know how much you love me an you know with out you I was alone and when you said she can't go no where because she don't have no place to go she has to stay with me I put your name on the deed that's real love b no men every love me like my brother in that's the person that taught me love an he went away so when I say I don't know how to love it's because the one I love always leave the one I trust left me to myself and it hurts because I know it not the intention but bro I waited at the house you never came back and when I finally catch up to you you lost in the tracks an it hurts so bad because I know you wanna do right by me and damn you don't know how bad I wish you were that older brother who hustle with me stay up all nite watch me when I sleep an it's got me lookin at the world different my pain hurt different because I look up to you and I admire your love for me even if you went crazy you never change up on me an that's real love an your so appreciated an that's why I say I love you so much because my brother lost his mind but the only thing on his mind is making sure I am straight ask me if my pocket need lacein cause you send it my way so worried about me he can't even walk no more but all he wants to do is come see me stuck in the old days worried I get evicted if you didn't come home with the cash always Talkin about buying my fancy thing cause you know I like them and you want to take care of me you ask me why I don't open up because to many time I been hurt by real love so I guess it's hard for me to believe that you won't walk away if I depend on you I worry one day you won't come home we learn our habits from are truma so if you every wonder why if didn't stay you think I didn't love you I love you touch my soul in another way an because I didn't know if you one day walk away i didn't want to fell that pain again a girl first love is her father I never had a father I had my borther they say we learn to love an trust from him well I told you what it is an I had ton unlearn this habit and what love do he walk away when I thought you really love me when I wanted to really try you left me to do I don't think I trust my heart with love like I am scare to live anything or anyone in the back of my head I just waiting for everything I love to leave and it's sad men it's so sad maybe all work thought this maybe Talkin about it all find a way to heal from all of this maybe someone needs to know your not alone in your pain and that you gotta not be scared to love but don't let love break you either idk I am still learning this thing called love