To those that were with me

Dear childhood friends,

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that I've forgotten about you all.

I'm sorry I didn't keep in touch. I'm sorry that I left with no warning.

I'm sorry for not cherishing the time I spent with you all. I'm sorry for being annoying,

For being weird, for not being there when you needed me,

For not staying behind to see what could be.

I miss you all. You see

I don’t want to make a sob story

But, every single one of you- I miss you. I miss your smiles, your laughters,

Your presence, the happiness that you gave me.

I miss all of our old promises, all of our old dreams and hopes.

I miss all of our jokes.

I miss all that we sought after.

You see, a part of me still asks about that happily ever after

But, I never liked the answers.

So I just act as if I’m a lancer-

Piercing through what I wish could be, as if it does not matter.

I suppose what I really want to say is this:

Our time together was bliss, and though I fondly reminisce,

I must let you all go.

You all, though important to who I am, have caused me to forgo

All that is in front of me all along.

It is time for me to be headstrong.

I won't regret all that you gave me. For that, I thank you.

Thank you for the memories, thank you for all you have endowed,

Thank you for the laughter, thank you for the support, just thank you.

I wouldn't be who I am without all of your kindness, and I just hope that I'll do you proud.

Thank you for everything.

With love forever,

Your old friend