Thought...
I wish i had another time or place
but most of all a chance to turn back the days
back to when were good
but leave me with the brains and ability i have now.
Maybe I would have forgiven you longer
Maybe i would have held you tighter
and loved you stronger than ever.
This pain is going to be the death of me
If i had a choice i would get rid of it
but you're not even close to being by my side
so at least i can make things right
I hate myself now more than i ever hated you.
The thought of never seeing you again
is what i keep avoiding
but it's the bitter truth
that i just don't want to hear.
Your voice still rings in my ears
like you're right here
and that kills me
because i look around looking for your incomparable face
but all i see is me and an empty world
without what was once my completion.
All i do to try and fill my emptiness
Is just sit and listen to our song
but i slowly die inside
because it just doesn't work
I feel even more empty.
Listen! Im half a heart
and i know my other half is there where you are
Every dream of you has me waking up
with my hands tight on my neck
trying to choke myself and die
but God help me!
But at the end of all this,
Im trying to be positive
being sure there is still something to hold on to
but im still not sure of it
My love for you is relentless
and i don't think anyone will ever take it.