A Thought

Sometimes I sit and think, I wonder,
What is reality?
Which part of this existence should I trust?
My focus wavered, my will diminished.
I have been so unsure, but no more.
Life has a way of working out
You may not get what you want,
but you get what you need and deserve.
I am not concerned, now,
with how things will turn out.
I cannot change that, I can only do what I do
and know that where I end up is where I should be
and who I end up with is who I need.
Should it be you or someone I've yet to meet.
But it is not myself that I think of now,
it is you.
I sense conflict within you, love,
I sense hesitance.
I think you should know that I'm here
as whatever you want me to be,
a friend, a lover, a dream.
You do not need to be conflicted.
Perhaps you want more, perhaps not,
but I will stay here by your side,
waiting to see which way things go.
I never want unhappiness for you,
I never want to pretend anything.
It seems I've come to know you better, by now
Some would say beware, beware of those red flags
that I see everywhere.
I know what I've gotten myself into,
but knowing that, I'm okay.
You should know that I don't care about the past
I don't care about anything else you might do
So long as you treat me well when we are together
So long as I know it's not a dream, a lie,
because for me, it's not.
I suppose to put a point to this,
Regardless of how you are,
What you've done,
who you are,
I will still love you, and I will still be here.
I keep no secrets from you,
this is why I tell you these thoughts,
that I have when I'm alone, and lonely.
It's a difficult thing, trying to tell someone
That you can see their flaws
and love them anyway, hoping they don't hate you for it
Hoping that you don't scare them away
Hoping that they can see that despite any flaws
you still hold them so far above everyone else
That these 'flaws' are not really flaws at all,
because they do not detract from who you are
They are simply a part of you
And if I am to love anyone,
I need to know that I need to love every part of them
Not just the good and the pleasing.
Don't feel like you need to hide your flaws,
not from me, not ever.
I am accepting, I am patient.
Please, just be yourself.
I have many flaws as well, you should know
I am human, only human,
and I can only  hope that you'll accept my flaws as well.
It's hard to see them for myself, but I'm sure you can
I am an uncertain person, I have no confidence
Not in myself, my actions, my decisions.
Regardless of this, I will still be steady,
Like a beacon in this timeline of mine
Myself, I can trust, it is the only thing I can really know
Stability, order, love, those are the things I have to offer.
You should know by now that I do not love lightly
When I do, I give everything.
It is an intense kind of love,
Some cannot handle this fierce devotion
that I place in my love.
Time will tell.
And so I shuffle this again to the back of my head
locking it away, so that nobody knows..
Nobody but the one person who I've let in.
Another day, another time, another thought.
This one is done.