Thought of the night

I just tryin find my self I left my hope behind me.13 teen i was trying to be a women thought that I had life all figured out thought I find away to never feel pain until you walk in I can hardly stand born from a broken home no one to hold my hand I shiver in my own skin when I think back to how troubled I was then thankful I had an angle watching out for me then where they go idk but I feel so alone There's nothing left to hold and your so far gone and You were my oxygen And now it's hard to breathe and I guess all just stand here Can you see me over here? Should I just disappear? I don't understand Why I am who I am why did we meet an why is loving you killing me I can't bring myself to let you go.Told me you loved me Right from the start Don't play no tricks Don't break my heart I don't even sleep at night?my conscience run to hide?Why can't you just do what's right by me trying to find the answers, and your reasons why broken pieces among my feet try not step or else I bleed shattered dreams I hold my breath and I can't breath what's going on tears, fall down why did you have to go and couldn't you have Let me, down slow now I bleed tears I lay here alone my nite are full dark shadows cast in the cold, tryin find a thread of light maybe then all make it thought the night I tell myself that I all right but these our just the little white lies to help me get by because the world's so big an cold Things are going down, never really an here I am is now stuck in this stupid rut I thought love was supposed to be grand I knew there always a few rough bumps an that's the beauty of it all I thought but I don't want to to cry noni got to be strong I got to much love I got to much life to give it I can make it thought the night I can make it thought the day and one day I hope I don't fell this way