Thoughts in my head

I told my self i would change i told my self no more. Then i caught my self just staring at the door. How could this be possible? how could this be? I never thought you could mean so much to me. You are the first thing that crosses my mind when i wake. I stop and think hold on is this a mistake. Then i start to think about us just a lil bit more.. Then i smile and wonder could this be something to explore. I start analyzing all kinds of possibilities. Then i say hold up and think are you even feeling me. We have this bond that some try to break. I look at us say Ha good luck cus i know we have what it takes. Your smile and your laughter i could see and hear all day. And i love listening to you talk and hear all you have to say. And the way you think it truly amazes me. Im like wow your soul is so beautiful and really unique. I wish you were here literally by my side . So i can tell you how i feel and let it all out and nothing to hide. Its crazy how people saw it and i didnt have a clue. That i was starting to fall feel something for you. I know i cant fix all your problems and i dont know what the future will hold. But i know no matter what you wont have to do it alone. Where ever you are? where ever you go? I hope one day you will see this poem.