A Thousand Words

Late at night

I press my hand against the wall

my head is ringing and I am

trying not to let it fall as everything else around me does.

It's the only stable thing I have in my life

and even then earthquakes still shatter homes and tornados create a blissful reduction

one by one, the walls come down and I'm letting people in.

I am Vulnerable.

I know better, but I know sooner or later it'll happen.

Not once, not twice, but more times than I can count on my fingertips.

I run them across my lips as I wonder,

bang them against my hips trying to drum a melody,

my mind can only wonder. My oh my how you look like me.

We’re not the same person anymore.

So who am I?

I am…

a thousand words

I am that one in a million who will take your mind

and twist it into believing it is extraordinary

and help you to understand the difference between the big bang and a God

I am buzz lightyear,

Loving you to infinity and beyond, wanting waiting for the best for you and me

all day long, but knowing it'll never

Get that good because we can always be better

I am

Fearless

I am beautiful, even with all the scrapes and scars

It's just proof that I am stronger than I ever been

Too much going through my mind

I'm still going to win

Win this war inside my heart that makes me want to give up, and keep fighting at the same time

I am resilient

I am breathtaking

Looking you in your soul and seeing all the things you don't want to tell me

And yet I still see you, I see me

I am you

We are one in the same, making things up as we go and hoping we stay sane

We might be together forever

So I won't step on your toes, but I'll be knocking at the back door of your brain standing next to your soul in

The mirror, asking who am I?

Who have I become

What more can I be

I am me, but my story is not yet done.