My covers like a castle wall,
Protect me from the barrage of emotions,
Too much to run from,
So I hide under waiting for a call.

No one around,
Alone to wallow in fear and pain,
No friends to reach out,
So I'll just lay here and try to cut out the stain.

To painful to reach out,
I can't breath at the sight of you,
But yet, you keep me from wanting to checkout.

The sheets my only protection,
An army of panic lays siege outside,
So for now I'll stay here,
And wait till I can no longer hide.

Alone I wallow,
No one seems to care,
They all refuse to approach me,
All they do is stare.

A freak, I hide alone,
At school, the bathroom becomes my home,
The stall my fortress,
The only place to avoid the known.

I write, and write,
Exhaling my emotions like cold breath in the night,
Permanent, it dries,
The ink stains cover the lies.

A freak,
A loner,
Hiding in my castle walls,
With ink and paper though,
I finally allow myself to grow.