Til the death of me

Till The death of me 
By Nate sublime 
Somebody told me chivalry was dead I asked  them whose a witness...
Gave birth to some feelings but I ain't feel shit...
Gave love to an angel she just took it...
Turns out she wasn't no angel my whole life was a mistake...i mistook it
Oh well...
I was told all that happens happens by grace...
To bad I believe all that fell fell due to grace...
I know my place but I ain't got to stay there...
Traveling on a path...
But who knew I was walking the trail of tears...
Fear eats my soul....
Deceit eats my heart...
If I were to fall in love again...
When I fall out my life I lived would fall apart...
Its a demented sentence that im sentenced to....
But all well I'll get better if I could make it through...

Thought I found her but like smoke...
She was gone with the wind...
Looking out my window...
I'm trapped and my souls looking in...
Staring at a mirror...
But the image looking back isn't me...
Its all seems so simple when im in the form and over taken by this evil deity...
Death is like a joke but it seems no human can get it...
Jesus laughed in his pain and suffering don't you ever forget  this...
I'm meant this poem to be less detrimental  to my surrounding society...
But then I began to remember like a lonesome vegan...
My diet also had to do with less of society...
I tried to write a poem I tried to rhyme...
But it seems like my very own emotions take me over...everytime 
Before I know it I become lost in the time...
My timeline is timed by reality too bad I live in my opinion...
And in my opinion the fact is that there is no truth in reality... 
I'm done...
Like the battle we fit 
See in this life nothings truly won...
Remind me to remind my  that shit to my future son...
I mean think about it we all can't live without it ....
Each day is a gamble and each day we end up sleeping 
Endowed to it...
but without it what would be life...
Just a bunch of lonely nights watching movies alone on the big screen...
Shit that's my life...
But that's a choice
to live right is also to live wrong...
There's nothing we can do to save ourselves if God doesn't exist...
I mean think about it we all are born in sin...
As well majority of us where even born wrong...
Dam...
I hang from the edge to catch a glimpse of the reality that people live in everyday...
But no matter where I look all I see is death coming our way...
Self induced drama...
Death induced by the designer...
The designer is mankind so is mankind suicidal...
Never mind it seems  no body is ready for a trip through my mind...
Try'd to tell a lie but the lie rolled before I got it through my teeth...  
So I just laid down and lyed so death can find me easily it won't have to seek...
I'm done...