Tired

Tired Tired of trying tired of pretending tired of fake smiling tired of failing never prevailing thinking positive to no availing I wanna give up n send my soul sailing but then they'll say I'm just bailing not knowing how on the inside my heart is wailing The scars inside have come out in to the physical why am I always so fuckin miserable i don't want anyone's pity No one knows this but me I don't wanna let ppl down but I also dont want them around Im feeling like a clown I'm just gonna continue to drown Selling my soul doing things just to eat Laying here about to accept defeat because in this world I can no longer compete God if ur real I'm kneeling here at ur feet Please pull me up out of this mess Or take me with u so that I can rest From this life I wanna be fired Help me cuz i am just too fuckin tired