Today 3/7/16

i wake up everyday asking myself if i should be here,

some days i want to say goodbye

go to sleep crying missing everything dear to me,

cry because i feel like nothing

i wanna pull the curtain

because everyday is a burden for me

never feeling happy so im

dealing with being so emotional

im lonely as can be

no parents around so im not sure whos proud of me

al i ever hear and see are things that discourage me

all i have are regrets

what should i do?

where do i go?

i have so many questions for my dad who was never there,

why is life so messed up when you least expect it?

my life is up and down,

so many things affect it

where would i be if i did something good for once?

where would i be if my dad was here and he was with my mom and their love was sincere

but its a shame to say thats not the case

do i give up or do i stand on my feet?

do i give in to the hardships of life?

do i hold to this thing called life?

do i stay strong when there are tears in my eyes?

do i keep moving when im hurting inside?

what is life if i cant make the most of it?

what is a smile if im not really happy?

when life crappy and you just want to cry

when life is a disaster and no one understands how you feel inside

how does everyone have everything figured out?

while i sit alone

im so emotional,

i guess these are the thoughts of a broken soul

im just trying to find who i am on this path of mine

i dont know...

its been a long time since i've felt like myself.