today

today seems significant

but i cant tell you why

because even i dont know 

i can tell you i feel at peace 

i can tell you i feel alive 

i can tell you many times today i fekt the need to cry

when i thought of all the people who i have told goodbye

i felt my heart ache 

specifically for the few that died 

i smiled when i thought of their enduring beauty

i laughed at the memories of the witty things they said

i weakened for a moment when they werent there when i turned my head

i thought for the first time in a while

im thankful for what i have

but most of all im thankful for those special people

because with us they left the memory of a knight in shining armor

instead of the memory of a friend