Today, I smile

After so many tears,

and all of the confusion,

After the repeated prayers,

I was given an answer.

And no it wasn't what I wanted to hear.

And yes there are times where you have to get hurt to see clear.

The answer I needed was no.

All of the signs were clear

but, it was me

who said,

"well maybe there's still hope."

I couldn't fathomlosing him.

All of what I put hard work into?!

The one who seems to still make my heart flutter?!

I've been exposed to his true colors

One too many times

but I was blinded

by my unrealistic expectations.

I was hoping for so much more,

that I couldn't take no for an answer.

It took that last straw

that broke the camel's back

for me to understand

that that "no" was good for me.

He is a true deserter

and I've got no reason

to keep holding on.

Today,

I smile

because it's all

Over.