Told me so

Dear me, It’s interesting how letters start out with that. With a “dear” As if we are close To each other. It’s not like anyone Could tell the difference, We live in the same body Have the same voice Same thoughts Same tastes Same hates Same likes Except, you’re happy And I’m not. You’re excited to go To school To work To practice And I’m not. You’re glad you’re alive You thank people for their time You like being with people You love being productive. I love to sleep. I know you were scared When they gave me a name. I was scared too. I wanted to escape To go to a place where I’d never be hurt Never be ostracized by Friends Family Him. So I tried. But you stopped me You stopped me. You. Stopped. Me. It was like you loved me Just me Sad Mopey Me. And I was still scared. They found out that I tried to die But I didn’t. Because of you. You wanted to be alive more than I wanted to be dead We went to Therapists Doctors Hospital And you refused to give up. You told me day after day after day That we’re happy to be alive. You pointed out the sun And the butterflies. I like butterflies. We accepted babysitting assignments Even though they knew what happened. Because you knew I needed it. I love babies. You made us get up in the morning And go to school. We took this class What was it? Something with medicine. You wanted us to help people. I really liked that class. I guess you were right when you said We have reasons to live Love Be happy You told me it’s Okay To feel. Well, I guess you can tell me “I told you so” That’s okay, I’m always right. Love, Me.