Torment of Heartbreak

Why must pain be my motivation? Learning lessons from heartache and devastation I grow wiser from each past relation The good always experiences the bad Why do optimist appear happy but feel sad? Lifes goal is the pursuit of happiness, but this a climax that can never be reached I try to shelter my emotions but its always breached We live in a world thats so cold Got me feeling emotionally bold Expressing emotions I thought I never had Just the thought of losing you makes me mad Its necessary that I block my heart In time I'll understance why we are two worlds apart No more pain from the memories that had me sheading tears Acceptance over time but damn it took year