torn

You know that feeling when your life is falling apart?
That deep pain you feel in your heart?
Or maybe the constant pounding in your head?
As you lie, crying, in your bed?

Throughout the day you laugh. 
Only to at night, feel as though half,
Of your laughter is at yourself. 
How can you be so sure of yourself?

You find out your 'friends' fake. 
You find yourself drowning in a lake. 
Of your own tears, that is. 
And to be riddled in your own thoughts, but not in his.

I cant tell you anything. 
You say I havent done everything,
To help myself out. 
But little do you know, I'm not one to pout.

So before you tell me to suck it up. 
Just know, this has been my whole life. 
You dont know that half of it.

I'm stronger than you think. 
But I am beginning to get weak. 
Day after day, never ending. 
Week after week, I keep pretending.

You know that feeling when your life is falling apart?
That deep pain you feel in your heart?
Or maybe the constant pounding in your head?
As you lie, crying, in your bed?