Totally Suicidal

                        Totally Suicidal 

• “Have you ever wondered what happens after you die?” you would ask me, and I would tell you I don’t know. 

• Sometimes I would always wonder why you sat at our balcony looking at the ground. 

• Until the day I realized 

• Then I wasn’t afraid to join her wherever she was 

• I picked up my phone calling all my contacts and no one answered 

• I called the last number on my phone, yet still no response 

• Was this what I was born to be? I ask myself 

• I looked over the gate seeing her body on the ground 

• I took a bottle of antihistamine and benadryl sitting on the ground with a knife in my hand 

• I started to walk down to her body laying down next to her

• My conscious started fading and held the knife at my stomach 

• I guess this is how it ends I whispered 

• Then finally my eyes cleared and I faded away smiling