Toxic Love

You make me feel trapped

Engulfed in a fog that’s too thick to see-- to thick to breathe

I’m exhausted

I’m running out of strength, out of time

I can’t be with you

But

I love you.

You make me crazy

Crazy crazy crazy

When I’m near you I feel like a war torn soldier  

But when I’m away from you all I do is long for you

I hate you

But

I love you

You are my everything

My sun

My moon

You feed my flowers and control my tides

I’m in this cage that’s made of your words

Everytime you say I love you it’s another bar

Everytime you say I miss you it’s another chain

God I could never leave you

But what about me?

Do you think of me?

Do I envelope you?

You weaved your way into my life

Into every thought

Every action

But you knew what you were doing

You wanted to have your strings attached

So I let you be the puppet master

To death do us part