Transgendered

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Fake
A descriptor built from uncertainty and accusations  
Tailored to those who do not fit regulations or expectations ­- freaks  
Used by those who do not understand anyone and those who wish to understand themselves.    

 
Bind  
Cloth wrapped tight to hold in dangerous secrets 
Around and around the mistakes that are to be hidden 
An agonizing deception of the body for peace of the mind.   
 
Deepen  
Shrill words grated on the sensitive ears of public image  
Raw sounds clawing out of a tired throat to keep curious eyes away  
Because nothing says I am normal like burning out your voice on meaningless conversation.    

Mirror  

A reflected book of stories and legends under lock and key
Opened only through hours of therapy and exhaustion  
A blurred, twisted document of haunted history unsuccessfully erased time and time again.   

Love  
Unobtainable dreams handed out by children's media to kids who need something to chase  
Meant for those who don't have to fight every day to try to be who they are  
Only a leaf in the wind outside a window of an office filled with doctors with needles and notebooks to figure out who I am.    

 
Me 
A mixture of confusion and self ­hatred 
Wrapped in a chain of doubts and lost hope  
Lost in a sea of hesheit hesheit hesheit and freak 
Aching for an answer that will never be found to a disease that can't be cured.  

 

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