Trapped in the Past

Once again I'm stuck in time Frozen in thoughts Crossing every and all spectrums I call it...being in my feelings In efforts to continue my lie And with a sigh the cycle restarts until I return to being in my feelings Looking through my life through metaphoric movie reelings Slowly undoing the seals my lies place Upon these eyes That replay my past decisions and their effects Giving special focus on my regrets Installing fear Not just of repeating these mistakes looping in my head but of falling short as I have so many times before So I write my thoughts Recording my fears And Catching my tears in every private place Leaving my own trace of realism to uncover The question is does anyone care to discover that which as I mentioned earlier Is sealed from even the man writing it all down