Trauma: A Climb or Dive

Torturous thoughts haunt me

Running wildly through my mind

Until my eyes well up in tears

Am I losing my grip on reality?

Muffled with hurt I sink even deeper in

Anger for reasons I can’t explain.

Affections like pity are just a placebo

Fostering helplessness like a raging fire.

Tempered with motive and lies.

Erroneous interpretations lead to

Rumors spreading wildly

Morphing a cry for help a disgrace.

Antidepressants dull minds not hurts

Talking openly is a matter of trust

Hidden under a cloak of hate

Sheltering wounds that never heal.

Reality is a cruel cold stage

Enthralled by theories about

Daily hurt defined as normal.

Ending one’s suffering is a

Mast climbed only by a victim

Persevering towards recovery

Taught in cause and effect

Iterated with a sense of safety

Ordained by unconditional love

Never by the sense of right and wrong.

Author’s Notes:

Trauma is when hurt is the daily normal and victims don't know they are hurt or afflicted with it because that's the only thing they've experienced. This is why they go into anger spells they can't explain and they just block out reason and can't believe what they did or why they did it. To you they may seem deranged or have anger management issues but the truth is they are children who are lost and need to feel safe to come home. Trauma survival and recovery is like a diet for one's way of living and maintaining a healthy mental state.