A True Girl

There's no way to describe it.

How I feel.

Lost,

maybe.

Hidden.

To put it simply

I'm not who I am.

True it's been years,

since Jumba and I were sent here

to Earth

we have made it our home.

Us six.

Nani and David and Jumba and Lilo and Stitch and I.

I know I could tell them,

tell them anything.

I believe they will love me the same,

if I tell them who I am

on the inside 

who I've always been.

I don't think it would be much of a shock.

I borrow Nanis' clothes sometimes,

she doesn't mind.

I love them,

the way I look in them,

the way they make me feel,

like when I put on makeup,

or wear a wig.

It completes me.

It's the only time

when my inside,

matches my outside.

I just wish I could be like them.

The other girls.

I feel like them.

I know I'm the same on the inside.

I wish I could be the same on the outside.

Be as pretty as them,

make everyone see me,

as the way I feel,

as another girl.

I wish he would see me that way.

This wasn't supposed to happen,

these feelings.

We had one job;

get Stitch.

Then things were supposed to go back.

Back to the way they were;

him a prisoner,

me a scientist.

But we stayed here on Earth,

we made it our home,

and my feelings for Jumba 

they haven't stopped growing. 

I don't know what to do.

It hurts to keep them inside,

but it could hurt more to let them out.

To tell everyone who I am,

and how I feel.

I don't know which is scarier.

Having my family reject me,

the real me,

or never being who I truly am.

Always pretending

that everything is okay,

when it's not.