The truth

Its hard to explain what is in my head. But my thoughts are more powerful than ever. I have this voice in my head that is wanting me to do something. But I dont know what to say. I mess up in all sorts of ways but i will never fully understand. So I'll sit here writting about my life. It might not be perfect, it might not even be simple but it is without a doubt my full entire life and i very much a victim of it I have two voices in my head on is innocent and the other is a devil that does not care the words are simple there is no control and no sell control So i continue to think about something better to talk about But it is simply the truth this is what the world inside os talking about the world that i only can see and hear but never actual be there only to know that it is my imagination and none can see or hear what i am saying am i crazy or fucked up ?