The truth

The truth is I don’t want to try,

The truth is I just want to lie,

I don’t exactly want to die,

But I don’t exactly want to be alive,

The truth is I don’t always care,

The truth is I can’t always be there,

I need to start focusing a little more on me,

Maybe I can open my eyes and see,

The truth is I have really been hurt,

The truth is I have been thrown in the dirt,

Everything I try to say simply goes unheard,

It’s all a little absurd,

The truth is I like being in the dark,

The truth is I like causing a spark,

I go through life trying to figure out the hype,

But this life is just not my type,

The truth is I don’t know where I need to go,

The truth is I just feel like I’m at a low,

So I’m going to start to take a stand,

A stand where I don’t need a helping hand,

The truth is life is pretty crazy,

The truth is all this is really hazy,

Everyone says they’re my friend,

But how many are going to be there in the end,

The truth is I don’t know if I’m able to trust,

The truth is that my life has really been a bust,

All these 17 years have led me to believe,

That in the end most people will just leave,

The truth is I don’t know how long it’ll last,

The truth is life for me hasn’t been a blast,

All I want is to be truly free,

Free from anyone who might hurt me,

The truth is deep down I’m not what I seem,

The truth is deep down I’ll never truly beam,

There are scars along my heart,

Where I have been torn apart,

The truth is that this is the end,

The truth is I have to say goodbye my friend.