Trying to Stand

I find myself constantly fighting

Fighting for survival

Fighting to eat, sleep and breath

Fighting the mental and physical pain

To be awarded with my mind at ease

Constantly, I drag this weight around with me

Desperately searching for the lock to insert the key

However, I remain in this state-of-mind

Remain to feel unwanted

Remain to feel worthless

Remain to fight for what seems likes nothing

It's as if my fighting is steadily falling into rejection

Repeatedly, I struggle to stand

Silly me

Why do I believe my crawling will summon a reaction?