Turbulent Thoughts

Everything is fine

Really, I could not ask 

for more

If that is the case

Why do I still feel

this way?

You mean so much

to me

You're in my life now

I talk to you more than I do

to anyone else

Everything is fine

Or is it?

I'm still caught on

the forbidden fruit

It has taken complete control

over my life

I still don't see

the purpose in things

when I can't find a reason

for myself

to exist

I even have memories

Bad memories

that consume my entire being

So if you weren't the problem

then what is?