Turtle

I spend most of my time being a maid 

In a house that holds my family but 

I’m just a stranger that’s here on extended stay until I am 18 

I am just an emotional punching bag

And sometimes an actual one 

4 more years 

3 more years 

2 more years 

Counting down the time my extended stay ends 

But as it gets near I’m scared to know what happens after that

I don’t have any money yet 

I don’t know how to drive  

I can’t pay for college tuition 

Should I stay for two more years and continue to be a stranger in a house that holds my family my own blood 

And continue to be a punching bag 

How will I pay for a place to live 

How will I get to college 

How will I get a car or a job with no experience 

2 more years I say 

1 1/2 more years 

1 year and 5 months to decide