Two of me

There is this fire inside of me

The heat is overwhelming

I try to extinguish it

but all it ever does is burn me

I’m a hopeless romantic

A jerk really

There are these two personalities inside me

Both fighting for control

Why can’t the both leave me the hell alone

I write love songs and serenade you

I break your heart and crush you

I’m just a man who wants to be loved

In this inevitable oblivion that we look forward to

I want to find one solace

I want to find someone to call my own

I’m just a man who wants to be loved

Praised and admired

Looked up to by everyone

The Lord Byron of my generation

The Casanova of my peers

There are these two personalities inside of me

Both of them are fighting for control

This fire is overwhelming

With each passing of the day

One side overcomes the other

I see what the both of them do to people

I feel ashamed and pathetic

It hurts and eats me away inside

But the sad truth is that

With every triumph over the other

I am the one who loses

I must sow the fields of my heart

And reap in my misfortune

This fire is consuming me

My words are my curse

My smile is my bain

These feelings I own I want no part of

I want to extinguish this flame

but I don’t know the way

Which do I let triumph inside of me

How do I know who I even am

These 18 years have been a lie, a farce

Is it even possible to be two people

This fire is all I’ve ever known