Ultimate minority
I am the ultimate minority.
Both of my parents are immigrant
I’m black and Mexican,
And I’m pansexual and genderfluid.
It’s an odd and glorious existence.
I am unabashedly proud of who I am
But sometimes being who I am makes me the punch line of every joke
The racist jokes
The anti-immigrant jokes
The homophobic jokes
The transphobic jokes.
Sometime it seems like it will never end
Because society has deemed it acceptable
To mock who a person is
And God forbid you get offended.
God forbid you are a living breathing person with feelings capable of getting hurt
God forbid you take offense to people attacking
Your race
Your culture
Your sexuality
Your gender
Because maybe just maybe being insulted is something to take offense to.
But maybe I just shouldn’t care
But whenever I hear a racist joke
It's like I'm nine years old again
Pushed down on the hard cold ground
Being told that it doesn't matter if our
President is black
I am still worthless
Because of the color of my skin.
But I guess I shouldn't be so emotional
I shouldn't take offense
And maybe if it was just racist jokes
I could deal with it forever
But it doesn't end there.
For some reason people think it's okay
To make jokes about deportation.
I remember this guy was telling me about a comedian
Who thought it would be funny to offer illegal immigrants a job
Only to dump them at a deportation office.
For people's amusement.
And as they told me this,
All I could think about was when my uncle who almost got deported.
Hearing the piercing shriek of the doorbell ring throughout my house in the middle of the night.
As his family was at our door afraid of what might happen to their loved one.
I remember,
His wife being afraid of losing her husband.
And his children being afraid of losing their father.
But no I shouldn't get offended or emotional
And maybe if it was just deportation jokes
I could deal with it forever
But it doesn't end there.
It took me along time to accept my sexuality
After years of self hate
I learned to love who I am
But the world as only learned to mock who I am
And I want to react but i can’t
Because any reaction is an overreaction
So every time someone jokes about me
Wanting to have sex with pans because I'm pansexual
I just think
Wow
Super original
And maybe if it was just the jokes about my sexuality
I could deal with it forever
But it doesn't end there.
I am genderfluid.
It’s pretty self explanatory
My gender is fluid
Whenever I tell people
They love to joke around and say
They identify as an attack plane helicopter.
Funny joke
I guess
If your gender identity isn’t important to you
But those jokes take away the joy I had when I first discovered my gender.
The happiness that disappears
As they laugh and laugh
And maybe if it was just jokes about my gender
I could deal with it forever
But it never ends there.
Because by virtue of who I am
The world has made me a joke.