Unconventional Methods of a Afghan Madwoman 2

I feel all types of way, complicated and cant escape off the high feeling of half of me wanting to jump off a skyscrapes And the other half wanting me to prove blind Faith --Like nah nigga I know I can escalate The better half cant lose to my other half Miss Half Baked. I barely make it as a human being but I continue to strengthen my mental well bein I love myself but loathe my life I dont know what I believe All I kno is how I wanna feel Energy is the only thing real Converting me into something surreal For real. But the truth continues to be concealed Government conspiracy or not So my mind screams out fuck u at? Why cant it be revealed? Turning to music cuz the beats are keeping my body to heal And the lyrics that help my mind deal. With the weed all I need Fuckin right I'm a fiend Inbetween I daydream of intense dreams versus with the idea that God may be a scheme Living nightmare or existing in a dream With religion being the main theme So look, Though I'm scared of the stroke i cant & wont stop takin tokes Knowing dat this da shit adding to my croak but still I continue to smoke My only outlet to cope with at lifes joke - this worlds a hoax Fuk aiming for the seat on the 1000 swords and being crowned I'm cold as snow but I ain't no Jon My moves are like nightwalkers Reacting only to how u sound With my smile upside down, Its more a sneer than a frown My Lifestyle rastafarian tho 100% kabul born Afghanistan South Asian sophisticated Barbarian Brought up in American Land I feel like arya stark I got a team who be like Targarians Understand that I'm not hindu Indian Trinis not the same as jamaicans and dominicans arent Puerto Ricans different types of caucasians Like Irish and Italians Dont confuse the brands and have followers following the wrong fans