The Uneducated Jobless Skank

Which is worse?

his actions or that I don’t miss him

I avoid him at all costs

like the plague.

Tonight?

I have practice,

No, I’m not going to scouts this week

Yet I’m not completely miserable

when we’re forced together

during mechanical I’m here

because I have to visits

Don’t mention you don’t like thin crust,

or’d rather have plain pepperoni,

just let the other two choose

or you’ll only cause trouble

For holidays

we put on our family sized façade.

Nothing's wrong here.

Euchre partners like nothing has changed,

just focus on the game.

“I’m not the fuck up who cheated on Mom!”

I’ve always had a bad poker face.

But it doesn’t take a rocket scientist,

just a loud speaker phone

Vigilant in angered confusion,

I skipped school the next day

I should have known sooner

It was ignorant to think I wouldn't find out

After all it was mom who moved to the couch

in all the movies I've seen

it’s the dad

At school no one knows

Nothing changed for them

thier dad didn’t move out

by mutual decision

Then

He dares lecture me?

That uneducated jobless skank?

How my grades are slipping,

how I’m limiting my options?

It's really no wonder.

His stupid visits are killing me.

Wasting my time

But ask him:

its my fault,

I do it on purpose

like some sort of an attention whore

Why aren't they divorced yet,

just...

separated?

Experimenting if she can trust again?

What is worst

my guilty and honest thought

that they hurry up and make it final

I'll receive more financial aid

From now on, to me

that is all he is good for