unfreezing heart

11:07pm

(10/15/2019)

and my mind got a mind of its own

but yo mind got me wrapped around yo finger and you never ask for too much

but I imply for too much

and I got affection for too less

so I dont trust too many more

but today's my favorite number

and you remember that walk downtown ?

and you remember that smile on yo face ?

got the calm in the air it was our wind we were blowing peace but you-

then i learn

you liked darkness

but dont you remember our hands 

and dont you remember the dogs and the art class and the bottles and the tattoos ?

you hold the latter and I hold onto what i never should have had but it all felt good for a moment

and if I'm honest

if I'm honest,

ion want that back

something wasnt true, something didn't stick I wasn't fully there your mental was on and the

vibes were feeling nice but the days fluctuated too much and I fed off your energy..

have i heard something ?

did you hear someone ever say ya true thoughts come out in the nighttime ?

why you my thoughts why I can't feel I ain't sad I ain't mad I'm swimming serenely while too many

black people dying

so I still believe in black love

and I still fall for your eyes 

something about being different you attract me

I attach to you.