Unknowing

As I set here alone in the cold still darkness if the early morning hours.I slowly and undieingly think of you.Sadness and sorrow are ever more becoming my friend.Fori s that all I know of when I think of you Can there ever be happiness of a time I shared with you will there ever be again?Far away my mind goes to a place where I once knew a place I once felt with you.A place I long to know again when I felt so much love and joy when you needed me and I needed you.Where together we stood the hands of time and defined gravity for I was yours and you were mine.Now I stand alone with what remains.Slowly I I start to feel the walls closing in as if to drown me.They start real fast at first then very slowly as to make sure I feel there every move making me suffer but for what is there meaning have I really been so terrible so horrific of a person that I am a creature forever more a monster