Unlove

I can't unlove because I am Impatient, selfish. I love as if I cannot be hurt. Going on as if nothing is wrong. I cannot unlove because I know not how. I spend my nights awake dreaming of how everything should have been. The speeches I have amongst myself Lost in complete darkness. Accepting the sound of my voice as an I told you so. Seeking a dream that seems so far away. I can't unlove because I accept disappointment. The contempt of putting others first without fear. I truly believe I cannot unlove because I am in love. Young again in thought running wild, free. I consider it a perk. Being the only other person I know how to be. No longer embarrassed of facing the opposite end of the mirror. Finding that the most important things bring the most smiles. I am far from perfect But I cannot unlove as if I made some sort of mistake. Purposely mistaking myself as a fool