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I'm lost.

But I don't want to be found.

I'm warm hearted,

But oh so cold blooded.

Not sure if this is good or bad,

Hard to believe, but I'm not sad.

This is probably for the best,

Because I know that I'm not as good as the rest.

I can't shake this nerve,

Because I feel like this is what I deserve.

Everyone says "no pain, no gain",

But what do you gain when there is pain?

This feeling is strange,

But it's a feeling I cannot change.

I just have to learn to let it be,

I'll sit back, and just wait and see.

Maybe one day,

I'll be able to stand up and say,

"Hey. I'm really truly okay."