Unnecessary

I wish I had whatever it is I'm missing to make you realize that you should be dissing these bitches instead of dissing the so called misses

That's done nothing but kiss only on you to find that you too have been kissing but on everyone else except for who you claim your love is true.

Hold me like you'll never see me again

But it won't mean shit to you cause I ain't shit to you. Making me wonder if you ever meant it when you said I love you, and if I'm just like everyone else to you

Tell them you love them and scream to me about how you don't. But the lack of love you have for me shows when you say you'll try and you claim you want to but you know you won't.

But you won't ever see just me, so you keep tryna leave. You scream "It's not you it's me" , but if I could've given you what you needed, the only female you'd be worried about is me

Don't you think I know I'm not the only one that's tryna be the only one ? But it doesn't matter now because I don't give you enough for you to have me as your only one. Not enough for you to toughen up, be a man and say "that bitch is bad but I only need what I already have"

I don't talk to you cause I'm dead inside, I just needa a hole or a place to hide. You walk around like you're perfectly fine, got me wondering if I actually meant something to you at any point in time

Why stay somewhere when you can get better elsewhere, that's your thought. That's why you keep leaving me, I'm not equipped with these tools of experience like these hoes you keep messing with.

Put my love on you and you threw it away like I'm a bandaid that just couldn't stay on

Cause I ain't shit other than the packer of every blunt you hit. I do everything I can for you and it don't mean shit if you can't lift your head to see that i've been brought to you as a gift

And these girls you keep messing with ? You ain't shit to them but a good time or a long dick to ride on vacations and weekends. But all you see is them. Not the only person that's been there through thick and thin, the ups and the downs, the only motherfucking person that stuck around. After all these years even your boys left you.  You got me sick and I still stuck by you. 

And that's what doesn't make sense. Time and time again you've been wronged by them but you still tend to run back to them. The pain that stems when you love them is more pleasurable to you than love that's true, the love that after I'll these years I've tried to give to you.

Rupture my trust with every stroke you thrust upon someone else, because my love isn't a must. Your lust for them exceeds your love of us so you turn your back on us, because for you sex is better than love.

 I can give you sex but all I really have is this love. This undying love that came from above that I've showered upon you but it was never enough.

But it doesn't matter what I think, cause we're on the brink of extinction and as long as your dreams don't involve just me I'm unnecessary.