Unordinary Life

There's been the bad,

I used to crack a smile, while I cut myself

-Clinically- insane

And there's been the good,

I’ve seen the sun come blazing down from a bright Virginia sky

And I’ve looked with awe, and wonder standing in Oregon's North Pacific shore

Amidst the bad, and the good

I’ve prayed endlessly beneath God’s wide, wide sky

Even though, sometimes.... I don’t know why.

I don't know why because

You see, ‘cause I haven’t heard the laughter from children, on the Coney Island Boardwalk

I haven’t been on Lisa Frank Avenue, watching the light down-pour of Arizona rain

I haven’t seen a sunset at Niagara Falls

And in a rainforest in China, I haven’t heard an, endangered, Hainan Gibbon’s call

I haven’t seen a cold fog come drifting in over San Francisco Bay

So I just settle for watching the Indiana clouds, as I waste away

Thinking of my struggles to be free

And of all the things that I want to be

And if they all want me to, I’ll die alone inside of my room

But first, this they must know

That when I wake up in the morning, my nightmares are surreal

That I’ve seen him for myself, the Boogeyman is REAL

With yellow eyes, and gnarled hands with long, razor-sharp claws

So traumatizing, you won’t even have a chance to process, or pause

So, what I’m trying to tell you people, is that I’m already in hell

But judge me not, because this can be -YOU- as well

Paid full in debt, the life I ‘chose’

...Maybe that’s just the way it goes

But if I could, I’d trade it all for heaven;

Its ordinary throne and halos longed for- by those of very which who are weak

….But maybe, an ordinary life would've cost me my confidence, at its peak

And if that’s the case…

An -UNORDINARY- life is what I seek!!!