UNRETURNED LOVE

I find no joy and all my happiness is gone. I fear and hope;I cry and frown like a watered adorn being. I look up the sky,yet no hope. I look around for who to admire, But I see nobody. I live my life in sorrow, and laugh in all my pains. So much bitterness and wrath rouse from my soul; I desire to perish,and yet I ask health; I'm fraught as well with flaws. I cast dejected glances at myself. I take myself through hellish terrains of shame. I can't forgive the despair I heap upon myself daily; I love another, and thus I hate myself. And my delight is causer of this strife.